Content warning: This post contains profanity.
To my future self,
I gotta say something out loud. I have to say it because I don’t want to hear it. Because it’s easy to hide in it.
You’re going to suck.
You’re going to fail.
It will hurt more than you can imagine.
Feel that?
That’s what you’re afraid of. That feeling right there. That emptiness in your heart, the stuck throat. That’s what you’re afraid of.
You’re going to suck.
You’re going to fail.
It will hurt more than you can imagine.
This is holding you back. This is keeping you small.
You’re going to suck.
You’re going to fail.
It will hurt more than you can imagine.
As soon as you can accept this, it becomes easy. There’s no need for courage if you know you can suck, fail, and hurt. These are three of an infinite number of outcomes.
Accept that you’re going to suck.
Accept that you’re going to fail.
Accept that it will hurt more than you can imagine.
Accept that you’ll fully experience this shittiness.
Now, get on with your life.
Craig
15 June 2026
